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In meditation it is clearly seen that there is no such thing as a you. It is all illusion created by the brain.

Yet in quantum physics it is irrevocably shown that the act of observing makes reality possible. Without observation, reality does not exist. Now it does not say observer but observing.

Yet we never really see or sense reality. The only thing we sense is energy, if it is seeing (light - we never see the objects, only the reflections of light on it.) or hearing (just pressure waves), touch (we never really touch anything, we only get close and feel the energetic repulsion of electrons) etc.

On a deeper level, perceiving is a digital code received from our sensory organs flowing through the nervous system and brain.

Perceiving and Reality become one and the same in the brain. This is known as solipsism.

These sensory organs such as eyes and ears receive signals from the outside world but there is no distance information in these signals. They are being created in the brain. When sound moves through the air, there is no distance information in it, just pressure waves. When light moves through space there is no distance information in it, just electromagnetic waves.

When the brain picks up these signals as digital code it adds distance to this code, separating perceiving and perceptions. This creates the illusion that there is a perceiver and an outside world called reality.

1. Without perceiving there is no reality. 2. Perceiving itself is a digital code. 3. There is no distance between perceiving and reality. This would conclude that reality is also just a digital code (or energy or light or information as our Dutch theoretical physicist Erik verlinde among other calls it).

There is no such thing as time or creation when observing stops.

Without observing, you still are. Who or what are you without observation - a blackboard, the infinite empty space that holds all of creation.

Dissolving perceiving itself in meditation by dissolving the source of it, being You / Ego, you are still left with this distance otherwise understood as vastness, infinity, sat (like an infinite silent ocean). Dissolving distance and you find you are information itself, you are perceiving, you are reality and there is no such thing as an individual or soul living a life.

Lets look at these axioms from a personal point of view.

Who am I ?

Who you think you are and who you feel you are is not who you truely are, it is an illusion created by the brain.

You are not thinking itself (in other words, you are not what you think). Thinking is separate from you otherwise you could not listen to the thoughts. You are also not who you feel you are because feeling is separate from you otherwise you could not feel. Both of these are happening outside of you and not as you. You are also not the body because you can perceive the body. You receive perceptions, you are not perception itself.

So what about awareness, are you awareness?

Awareness comes into existence when the brain is turned on, similar to turning on a computer and the operating system comes alive. Awareness is the ability to perceive and experience and nothing more ! Without perceptions there is no such thing as awareness as can be easily observed in deep general anesthesia (medically induced coma) where even the sense of time has ceased. This awareness can change depending on what parts of the brain are turned on and how much (with the exception of the cerebellum, a part of the primitive brain that works without awareness). These different levels of awareness can be easily observed in deep sleep versus the awake state and the different states of altered awareness due to drugs.

The neurobiologist Roger Sperry discovered that one side of the brain wasn't aware of what the other side was seeing when the corpus callosum was damaged (a bundle of fibers connecting the left and right hemispheres of the brain). As you might already know, the right eye is connected to the left side of the brain and the left eye is connected to the right side of the brain.
In an experiment, patients could describe only images that reached the left side of the brain, because the ability to speak is located on that side. However, they seemed unaware of images that reached only the right side of the brain. Yet if they were asked to use their left hand (controlled by the right side of the brain) to indicate the image that had just been shown to the right side of the brain, they could do so. So on an unconscious level they had access to information that reached the right side. The left side of the brain then made up a story combining the information from both sides of the brain. The story was logical to the patients but completely incomprehensible to their surroundings.
When the right side of the brain registered a written instruction to stand up and walk away, a patient obeyed. When asked why he did so, he didn't say, "You just asked me to," because he hadn't consciously registered the instruction. So he made up a reason to explain his behavior: "I'm just going to get some hot chocolate."

If you were awareness itself, separating the left and right hemisphere of the brain would make no difference in awareness - but it does! It seems to split you into two unique awarenesses.

However perceiving is a doingness in the brain and when this doingness also stops you end up with a blackboard, empty of all perceptions, sense of self and thought. Awareness seems to be the link between the blackboard and perceiving itself.

Blackboard (with Robert Adams)

You cannot say you are the blackboard but when you dive deep within yourself, you will end up with this blackboard as the only thing left - never changing and absolute. Even deep sleep is something that takes place on the blackboard and is itself not the blackboard.

In general anesthesia (a medically induced coma) there is no more awareness and because of it, it is impossible to proof or experience or even know if the blackboard remains or disappears. You need awareness to realise the blackboard, without it you will be the same as a rock trying to find out who he is. Yet the last seconds when awareness dissolves in general anesthesia and the first seconds when awareness emerges again, shows you there is a source or base or ground where awareness dissolves into and emerges out of and that this source is not in any way influenced by general anesthesia yet is not aware of itself without awareness emerging out of itself.

The blackboard or TV screen is the first step in awareness. When you dissolve the blackboard you remain as everything without being anything, including awareness.

This would conclude that the Soul or Awareness unit (or whoever you think, belief or feel you are) is not separate from the brain and that this all is projected on a blackboard as a play of light. This blackboard is the single unchanging thing here, the rest is mere electrical activity in the brain.

So how does an energetic being or soul look like if it is just a brain product, well take a look at a brain activity simulation below and you will meet your spirit or soul.


So the major question that remains is: Is the blackboard real or is it yet another brain phenomena.

Even though you are unable to prove the existance of a blackboard, you can realise it...

Levels of realization:

I am the body Most people are in this state.
Awakening Kundalini is awakened and starts to change the brain and raise awareness
Full awakening Kundalini energy flows up and out of the crown without obstructions. Life is more on a flow with less control and full awareness of energies. Automatic healing on all levels take place and you start to be able to really heal others. Here you fully awaken your spiritual self.
Self-realization The realization that one is not the body or mind but a spirit that cannot perceive itself. Out of body experience can trigger this realization as well.
Oneness The realization that you are not an individual or a separate spirit but you are the whole universe itself.
Moksha - (sometimes also referred to as awakened)

The realization that everything is I, the opposite of oneness and you are no more. The awareness arises that everything is who you are and when you fully experience yourself it dissolves in silence as well. You merge with the blackboard.

Nirvana The realization that you do not exist - the end of the cycle of life and death. Basically the same as Moksha with the emphases on breaking the cycle of life and death. You merge with the blackboard as the only ultimate truth.
God realization

When you realise Perceiving, Perceptions and Reality are one and the same. There is no more blackboard or base, all is merged as one.

Enlightenment The divine light taking over the body and the body itself is starting to change and radiate this light to the point where physical light can be observed eminating from the body and the body becomes immortal. More info from Vallalar about Enlightenment and beyond here.
Rainbow body of great transference This light starts to change the body and starts to reverse the age and shrinks the body until the point where only light remains...

So lets go back to the beginning and look a bit deeper into the who you think you are...

This Ego program shows up in awareness (operating system) as thought, creating the illusion that it is real and that it can do things, have things and be things. Yet all thought and perceptions are digitalized when it enters the brain so no smell, sight, sound, touch or taste and even thought travel through neurons, only the digital translation of it. So even if there was a real you floating around in your brain, there is nothing to "see" - only digital code.


Sheila Nirenberg, Cornell University - expert in the field of neural coding

Research has shown us that all these digitalized senses come together in a place called the angular gyrus, a section of the brain below the crown chakra, that produces a viewpoint. When this part of the brain gets damaged or lacks oxygen, you end up with exteriorization (out of body experience) and other viewpoint distortions - so nobody exteriorizes, it is just the brain computing differently.

Awareness on the other hand arises throughout the whole brain without any specific location and is extremely flexible - keep in mind that pure awareness is nothing more than pure perceiving. When neurologist Lionel Feuillet from Marseille received a 44 year old patient who was missing 90% of his brain he was amazed at the fact that this man was living a normal life - this shook up the medical world quite deeply. Also Brandon and Brittany Buell had an amazing story of their newborn child in 2014 that was missing most of his brain but otherwise functioned normal and even speaks nowadays. So this shows you the brain is also extremely flexible and reprogrammable.
Earlier research from Luc van Loon from the Medical university in Maastricht already showed that the amount of mussle protein produced can potentially renew mussle cells within 6 to 8 weeks time. Well, in februari 2018, he found that in the brain the generation of protein is 3 to 4 times higher then in mussles, potentially renewing the entire brain at increadible speeds - this is just unbelievable. It was previously understood that neurons in the cerebral cortex, for example, are not replaced at all when they die, well this might be completely misunderstood. A product from among other strawberries called Fisetin for example has already been shown to produce new nerve cells so there is much more to learn here. (Journal of Neurochemistry article from Sagara Y, Vanhnasy J and Maher P.)

However this viewpoint or You is not real, it is just a computer / brain program. The moment when you hold onto the YOU feeling, you will see that it starts to dissolve and disappear. It is just a feeling and feeling is just a perception and perceiving / sensing is just awareness. The only thing happening here are thoughts and perceptions mixing around in awareness and when thought ceases, pure awareness and pure perceiving remains and the person is happy and joyful without reason. It is the identification of the mind with all the garbage in the brain that creates the illusion of an ego / a feeling of self / that in turn brings up all the misery and despair in one's life. In other words the moment thinking starts, the I is born and when thinking ceases, pure awareness remains.

Nirvana is the permanent state of awareness without identification. It is a state without an ego or sense of I, where perceiving and awareness are one and the same.

Because awareness is just a brain product, it is the rewiring of the brain that produces the higher states of awareness. The less interference and programs there are messing with perceptions / thought the more clear the blackboard becomes and the more easy it becomes for awareness to recognize the blackboard as its source.

The best and most effective method of achieving nirvana is the Buddhistic meditation called Trekchod (similar to self-inquiry) and Togal (receiving darshans and drishti from the living and ascended masters) in combination with a powerful energy called the kundalini (basically raising the sexual energy into the brain and rewiring the brain with this energy), but as Jill Bolte showed, a brain stroke can bring you to nirvana as well, showing you that it is the rewiring of the brain that brings forth the state of nirvana.

Jill Bolte Taylor's stroke of insight


Similar to Jill Bolte is the experiences of Lauren Marks aneurysm hitting the language center.

Here are some very interesting findings that can happen with the brain and awareness when things go wrong, showing you and proving that there is also no such thing as a SOUL or SPIRIT.

Lack of oxygen in the angular gyrus such as in near death experiences can create the idea of out of body experiences. Researchers have placed playing cards on top of cabinets in the rooms of patients in order to test whether people see the cards when they are ostensibly floating above their bodies. As you might expect, patients who felt they were leaving their bodies haven't been able to identify the cards. Even more interesting, one of Dick Swaab's phD students had an out of body experience when he was 34 years old where he saw himself lying on the ground and his wife was calling his name in panic. The interesting part here is that he could hear his wife's voice next to him, rather than below him. This clearly shows that exteriorization is a product of the brain.

My own experience also shows that something is wrong with the idea of exteriorization and remote viewing. In 2000 I was experimenting a lot with leaving the body (exteriorization) and going to other places on the planet and even the solar system and beyond. This was mainly triggred by Scientology which me and my wife were into at the time. I remember pushing people while being exterior and they later confirmed they felt something at that time so I was pretty convinced that this all was real. I also viewed the backside of the moon and saw all kinds of buildings that on internet I found other people saw as well.

Then in 2004 something magical happened. I was introduced to a book called Silence of the heart (from Robert Adams) and in it, it explained in details the practice of self-inquiry. This practice in a nut shell is all about the simply question: "Who am I". Now I knew for sure who I was, I had many, many past life memories that were very vivid and real (I even verified it by going to London to see if my past life was correct, which it was.) Exteriorization was very real and in between lifes was also very real (I knew exactly when I picked up this body and dropped my last body in London etc etc.) However in 2004 when I was in my bedroom and went exterior again, looking at my body from the corner of the room, I started doing self-inquiry - while exterior - and here the magic started. Within 20 to 30 minutes everything flipped inside out. Instead of me looking at the room and the body, I became the room and body without any viewpoint in it! The only thing there was the room with the body on the bed, no more me or viewpoint. Very similar to a dream where there is just the dreamworld without a you specifically in it.

This gave rise to the realization that there is only awareness and there is no such thing as a you or viewpoint or soul that can go exterior and do anything. This is what can be called pure oneness. You are that, you are experience itself, you are what is perceived, you are awareness itself. But this awareness is not separate from the body.

In February 2015 I had to go under general anesthesia and lost all awareness, including time. I had a couple of similar events before this called nirvikalpa samadhi (a deep state of meditation) where I suddenly lost 30 to 40 minutes in meditation with a cold body. In these states, there is no more awareness either, which clearly showed me that awareness is a product of the brain. Doing regression therapy and recalling the period of general anesthesia, I found the brain literally making up a story from the unconscious material in the brain while there was no awareness during that period.

So if there is no such thing as a soul or spirit that means past life memories, however real, have another explanation.

Research has already shown without a doubt that memory is actually stored in the the whole brain using the protein KIBRA (2016 research from Li Gan from the university of California) and that the hippocampus functions like a archivist, storing and recalling this memory.
I remember always having a big question mark with people like Henry Molaison, Clive Wearing and many others who after damage to their hippocampus only remember the last minute of their life and the rest is gone. But letting go of the idea that there is a spirit that somehow stores the memory in an energy field around him was the only logical conclusion.

So I started to question the memories of past lifes and put it to the test. For sure they were real to me because all the emotions and pain I could feel were real, not imaginary. So I took two events that were extremely real to me. One was an event that took place 460 years ago in Florence where my wife slowly died in my arms due to an illness. This event was filled with grief and I must have been crying deeply for over 2 hours when I came in contact with it. After releasing all the grief and pain around the event I remember I was also released from the automatic response of always saying yes to any request from a women who was crying. So an obvious conclusion would be; this trauma was locked inside the body / mind / spirit for 460 years causing reactive behavior.

Another event took place about 9000 years ago in northern India where I was a teacher and also had a very nice Indian wife. When my wife died in that lifetime she did not acquire a new body but stayed with me in spiritual form (like a guide) and about 15 years ago I found this event and could finally give her the freedom to go and start a new life herself. This released me from a feeling of always having to look for my spiritual soulmate. So both events were influencing my whole life without me knowing where the influence came from until the moment of release.
So here comes the test. Which lifetime was longer ago (I used a sort of lie detector to see how the answer would read) To my amazement, the life 460 years ago was longer ago then the life of 9000 years ago. Then I tried it with many other examples and all were 50% correct and 50% incorrect. Something was wrong here.
I also researched some other people who could vividly remember their past lifes and what was really interesting is that many would describe a duplicate life, such as being mother Mary. I must have met at least 4 people who were absolutely convinced that they were mother Mary in a past incarnation. Something wrong here as well.
Then I found not only duplicate lifes myself but also double lifes, multiple bodies, multiple beings in the same body and the story became stranger and stranger.

How strange, well if you have the time take a look at a lecture from Dolores Cannon about the convoluted universe:

Also the time between body death and acquiring a new body did not seem to align with a constant truth. I was clearly influenced by what I was reading and who was giving me sessions and what kind of sessions. In the beginning it seemed that in between 2 lifes there was a kind of alien story and forceful implanting being done to force me back into a new body. This was heavily influenced by Scientology. When I entered the spiritual world with teachers like Brandon Bays and other energy work, these in between life stories changed into angels and crystal domains and when I entered India with their rituals and mediations I saw Shiva and other Indian saints helping me in between death and life. Well reading the Tibetan book of the death I can imagine that I would be seeing Buddhas that would be helping me and if I were going into deep hypnosis with Dolores Cannon I would be visiting friendly aliens among other.

So if past lifes do not exist, where do the memories come from?

Here Access consciousness (techniques and processes to make someone more conscious) undoubtably showed me the answer that most of the mental garbage (such as past life trauma) creating reactive behavior (more then 99%) is not mine at all but from other people, past or present, that I was linked to. By simply asking the question: "who does this belong to" and return it to sender, it unlocked and disappeared.

This also showed me that most of my traumatic past life experiences were actually not mine at all but from my parents and their parents and their parents etc. The event in Florence I found was actually not mine but my great great great great... grandfather and was handed over to me genetically and mentally during my first 9 month in the womb. Another very interesting fact was that releasing the trauma in myself would also release the trauma in many other people such as the rest of my family, meaning there is also a sort of quantum entanglement happening here.

Another interesting fact happened in 2007 when I was visiting Krishnaveni Amma in south India (a tiger reservation). To make a long story short, I was somehow connected to the animals in the area where Krishnaveni Amma was staying such that I felt the emotions of them all as me. I must have been crying for hours about a certain grief charge that certain monkeys from the area had that was going through me (and making me feel like it was me having these emotions) and felt incredibly relieved when it finally released. The really interesting part here was that I was feeling the grief and not feeling the emotion of something outside of me. Even more interesting, Krishnaveni Amma, who only spoke Tamil and I did not, knew what was going on and told me later via a translater that nature wanted to thank me for something without her knowing what happened to me!

With all this in mind, it became crystal clear to me that there is no such thing as reincarnation. All can be explained by the above. Even the Buddhistic enlightened children of past masters clearly showed me something is wrong. Just take a look at the argument of who is the new Karmapa, Ogyen Trinley Dorje or Trinley Thaye Dorje?

But what about memories in near death experiences and deep general anesthesia when there is no brain activity?

Another really interesting study came from Romanian doctors who noticed odd EEG brain activity in a patient who had lapsed into a coma while under the influence of anti-seizure medication. Researchers at the University de Montreal looked into this and put 26 cats under deep anesthesia (cats have 9 lifes :) and recorded their brain activity in the upper cortical regions and hippocampus (deep inside the brain). In all of the cats, a previously undocumented “ripple event (activity - silence - activity -silence...)” was evident in the hippocampus after EEG read-outs went “flat,” indicating a silenced cortex. The results appeared to replicate what had been seen in the human patient from the Romanian doctors.

As was previously understood, once a brain goes flat line, a person would be considered brain dead and could not have any experiences during that time. But with these new findings from the Montreal team, it seems the brain is not dead at all after flat-line and is still able to produce awareness and experience. Compare this to a blood sample. The blood is not in your body anymore but remains alive for many days. Peter Noble from the University of Washington clearly showed that certain genes in the human body are actually more alive days after body death then when the body was still alive. He also found that stem cells in the body are still alive 17 days after body death.

Another interesting finding is that the pineal gland produces massive amounts of DMT prior to death. Now DMT is a strong hallucinogenic substance also found in Ayahuasca (to be more precise, in Psychotria viridis, Psychotria carthagenensis, or Diplopterys cabrerana - The Ayahuasca is actually an inhibitor that inhibits the breakdown of DMT by enzymes called deamination.)
DMT can induce a state or feeling that he or she is able to “communicate with other intelligent-life forms" and commune with religious entities, humanoid as well as animal form, and even interact with alien life forms. High doses of DMT produce a hallucinatory state that involves sense of “another intelligence” that people sometimes describe as “super-intelligent”, but “emotionally detached”.

A famous book written by Dr. Eben Alexander (a neurosurgeon) called "proof of heaven" is a great example of this, however he himself tries to proof that his DMT trip was all very real and not at all hallucinatory - showing you how real these experiences seem to a person. Dr. Eben Alexander entered into meningitis-induced coma with no higher brain activity (actually the doctor who treated him said he medically induced the coma, but that is besides the point) and journeyed beyond this world and encountered an angelic being who guided him into the deepest realms of super-physical existence. There he met, and spoke with, the Divine source of the universe itself.

In other words, all of this takes place inside the brain and is produced by the brain!

The tunnel with light that is often seen in near death experiences is another interesting phenomena that is also experienced by fighter pilots when pulling excessive G forces. It seems that when blood flow decreases in the eyes (like when the heart stops beating), a tunnel vision with light at the end of the tunnel appears in the brain.

Other really interesting research can be found from Susan Blackmore, Daniel Dennett, David Yaden and our own Dutch researcher, Heleen Slagter.

Is the Source or blackboard the foundation of the universe itself or is it yet another layer of brain activity?

To answer this question, lets look at some unique approaches and see if the answer pops up here.

So if awareness is just mechanical, you should be able to artificially duplicate consciousness and life ...
Well, it is already done:

Just take a look at google photo:

Or even more fun, help googles neural network by engaging in quick draw:

Here google's deep mind neural network is actually understanding the image and not just working with the name of the file. In google photo the Artificial Neural Network (ANN) can find people and things in your photo collection. If you ask to find all the photo's containing a cat, it will do so even if it is just a tail. It actually "sees" the images.

Take a look at the images below from Google's deep dream Artificial Neural Network (ANN). It almost seems like Google's deep dream is on a DMT trip (actually consciously dreaming). In this example below the ANN is given a static white noise image and is asked to look for life forms:

Static white noise

Google's deep dream ANN findings

Well is the same happening in our brains? Is consciousness nothing more then computational understanding of the neural code entering the brain with another program making you belief - You - can actually see them?

Stop sleeping for a week and hallucinations will mix with reality and you will not know what is real and not anymore (just watch fightclub to get an idea of this).

We know the You is just an illusion produced by the brain and we know the brain only "sees" digital code and nothing is actually Seeing. So with this in mind, can one conclude that all of consciousness and awareness is a mere product of the brain?

What about sentience and phenomenological consciousness?

Sentience is the capacity to feel, perceive, or experience subjectively, something an ANN cannot do. Phenomenological consciousness refers to you undergoing an experience like when you are consciously perceiving the world or for example feeling sad, thirst, pain etc. ANN's cannot do this.

Why is it impossible for an ANN to become sentient of an object but for us it is second nature?

Well in deep meditation when there is no more sense of self (no more -You - program) sentience remains in the form of pure experience in an ocean of silence like a wave flowing on top of the ocean. Without the ocean, there is no experience and obviously without the experience there is no sentience.

The ocean is actually the blackboard and the waves or experiences are actually what is drawn on the blackboard. Without the blackboard it is not possible to have sentience. Whatever you draw on the blackboard is the object of sentience.

Another analogy is fuel in an engine. Without fuel the engine will not run but without the engine fuel has no meaning. Experience is the fuel for the blackboard making sentience possible. Without the blackboard, experience has no meaning.

In an ANN experience has no meaning.

On the subject of meditation, specifically self-inquiry, you find that there is no such thing as an I or you and when you go deeper you also find that there is no such thing as a self or beingness or I am and yet even deeper you also find that there is no such thing as awareness, existance and life. Even space and time are illusions. This is the awakening process where all the veils of illusions drop and silence and truth remains (the blackboard remains).

When this silence and truth settle as the main foundation the reverse starts to happen where you realise you are not the self but the self emerges out of you as does all of existance. Everything emerges out of you.

This emerging out of you is sentience itself.

Well what about quantum neural networks QNN?

It seems the brain is not just a set of wires creating a neural network but also taps into the power of quantum computing. Prof. Matthew Fisher from Santa Barbara is spearheading this research showing you that room temperature calcium phosphates (apatite crystals) can produce quantum states in the human brain.

In quantum physics it has been irrefutably shown that materialism does not exist. Without an observer (I like to go a step deeper and say without sentiece) existance does not exist. Take a look at the below video on the strange behavior of quantum physics:


If this will ever lead to artificial sentience I do not know, but what I do know is that if this were to happen, the source of AI sentience is who you are as well.

For further information on what a quantum computer can do please refer to D-wave quantum computing company (a system that google is trying out now as well for it's QNN's).

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So what is life and what is the source of awareness and can we find the source of the blackboard?

Life is a set of biological interrelated activities (chemical interactions) that interact to achieve a result, such as survival. This biological process can also be synthesized in a lab such as artificial but living bacteria from Craig Venter's lab, showing that DNA can be booted up (by giving it an electrical shock) just like turning on a computer to start and support life.

Syn 3.0

On March 25, 2016 Venter reported the creation of Syn 3.0, a synthetic genome having the fewest genes of any freely living organism (in other words, the smallest life form on earth, having 473 genes). Their aim was to strip away all nonessential genes, leaving only the minimal set necessary to support life and by doing so finding the key elements in the genes that make life possible.

DNA is basically the software that builds and runs the organism, making it alive and making it survive.

In other words, Life is a program stored in a set of genes that runs the cell. It interacts with the environment using transcriptional regulations.

In molecular biology and genetics, transcriptional regulation is the means by which a cell regulates the conversion of DNA to RNA (transcription), thereby orchestrating gene activity. This control allows the cell or organism to respond to a variety of intra- and extracellular signals and thus mount a response.

For a deeper understanding of this click here

But Syn 3.0 and other single celled creatures are not sentient. It seems you need a brain for that.

So where does sentience start - or in other words, where does the blackboard show up?

In 2015, Marie-Claire Cammaerts and Roger Cammaerts published an article in the Journal of Science that suggests some ants can recognize themselves when looking in a mirror. When viewing other ants through glass, ants didn’t divert from their normal behaviors. However, their behavior did change when they were put in front of a mirror. The ants would move slowly, turn their heads back and forth, shake their antennae, and touch the mirror. They’d retreat and re-approach the mirror. Sometimes they would groom themselves.

The ants were next given a classic mirror test. The team of researchers would use blue dots to mark the clypeus of some of the ants, which is a part of their face near their mouths. When in an environment without mirrors, these ants would behave normally, and wouldn’t touch the markings. But this changed when they could see their reflections in a mirror. The ants with blue dots on their face would groom and appear to try to remove the markings.

The question here is, does this count as sentience or mere reaction to information?

Again impossible to proof because you cannot proof the existance of the blackboard because the blackboard is not a product of structure. With machine learning you can also make lifeforms that look and behave really alive but is surely not sentient.


KITECH robot fish

Yet looking at this experiment one can say the ant actually experiences the evironment and itself unlike the robotfish or any other robotic lifeform.

So lets look at some of the facts. The brain of an ant has about 250.000 neurons, that is about a million times less than we have and about the same amount of transistors as in an old Intel 80386 processor from 1985 (without counting memory and RAM which is included in the ant)

Looking at this one must come to the same conclusion as I have that there is more going on in sentience than mere neuron activity. If we duplicate the ants neural network we are not even close to producing the same results.

You need a blackboard, exactly the same as how it works with us, and this blackboard is not a product of structure (such as a brain) as there is no common structure among life producing sentience.

A blackboard is not created, nor a product of the brain, nor does it need a brain (even in general anesthesia when the brain is out, the blackboard remains). It is awareness that merges perceptions with the blackboard to give raise to sentience.

For awareness to show up you do need a brain.

Ashlyn Blocker

Teenager Ashlyn Blocker, who lives with her parents in the US town of Patterson, Georgia, feels no pain and is one of a small number of people in the world who have been diagnosed with congenital insensitivity to pain.

Scientists studying this condition in 11 affected families in Europe and Asia have now identified mutations in a gene called PRDM12 that was already known to be involved in activating genetic switches (switching genes on and off). The tests revealed that Ashlyn had inherited two defective copies of the SCN9A gene which is a gene that belongs to a family of genes that provide instructions for making sodium channels that play a key role in a cell's ability to generate and transmit electrical signals involved in the transmission of nerve impulses in pain-sensing neurones (Nociceptors).

A nociceptor is a type of receptor at the end of a sensory neuron's axon that responds to damaging or potentially damaging stimuli by sending danger signals to the spinal cord and the brain.

The peripheral terminal of the mature nociceptor is where the noxious stimuli (an actually or potentially tissue damaging event) are detected and transduced into electrical energy. When the electrical energy reaches a threshold value, an action potential is induced and driven towards the central nervous system (CNS). This leads to the train of events that allows for the conscious awareness of pain.

When there are no signals being send into the brain there is no awareness! Hence awareness is a product of the brain, BUT again this says nothing about the blackboard.

So where does the awareness of pain start ?

It is happening inside in the Somatosensory area of the brain as is found on PET scans among other.

Somatosensory area

However sentience and the blackboard in general cannot be pinpointed and seems to have no specific location.

It is even possible to turn it inside out by removing awareness from sentience so only the blackboard remains.
Ramana Maharshi, who has completely dissolved the sense of I / awareness in meditaion and underwent surgery to remove cancer without Anesthesia or any other kind of pain killer but it did not bother him.

" Towards the end of 1948 a small nodule appeared below the elbow of Ramana's left arm. As it grew in size, the doctor in charge of the Ashram dispensary cut it out. But in a month’s time it reappeared. Surgeons from Madras were called, and they operated. The wound did not heal, and the tumour came again. On further examination it was diagnosed that the affliction was a case of osteosarcoma, an extremely painful form of bone cancer. The doctors suggested amputating the arm above the affected part. Ramana replied with a smile: “There is no need for alarm. The body is itself a disease. Let it have its natural end. Why mutilate it? Simple dressing of the affected part will do.” Two more operations had to be performed, but the tumour appeared again. Indigenous systems of medicine were tried, and homeopathy too. The disease did not yield to treatment. The sage was quite unconcerned and was supremely indifferent to suffering. He sat as a spectator watching the disease waste the body. But his eyes shone as bright as ever and his grace continued to flow towards all beings. Crowds came in large numbers. Ramana insisted that they should be allowed to have his darshan. Devotees profoundly wished that the sage should cure his body through an exercise of supernormal powers. Some of them imagined that they themselves had had the benefit of these powers which they attributed to Ramana. Ramana had compassion for those who grieved over the suffering, and he sought to comfort them by reminding them of the truth that Bhagavan was not the body: “They take this body for Bhagavan and attribute suffering to him. What a pity! They are despondent that Bhagavan is going to leave them and go away – where can he go, and how?”

What about life energy?

Life energy and awareness is one and the same thing. Reiki, kundalini, Qigong and all other spiritual energies are a form of this life energy. Life energy in physiology is called an action potential and is a short-lasting event in which the electrical membrane potential of a neuron cell rapidly rises and falls, following a consistent trajectory to provide cell-to-cell communication. A neuron that emits an action potential is often said to "fire" :

Action Potential in a neuron (life energy)

When large numbers of neurons synchronize their "fire", it will give rise to neural oscillations, otherwise called brainwaves. This can be measured using EEG.

Lambda 200 Hz and up Unconditional loving-kindness and compassion - enlightened state.
Gamma 27 Hz and up This is associated with the formation of ideas, language and memory processing, and various types of learning.
Beta 12hz - 27hz This is generally the mental state most people are in during the day and most of their waking lives.
Alpha 8hz - 12hz Awake but relaxed and not processing much information. When you get up in the morning and just before sleep, you are naturally in this state. When you close your eyes your brain automatically starts producing more alpha waves.
Theta 3hz - 8hz Light sleep or extreme relaxation. Theta is also a very receptive mental state that has proven useful for hypnotherapy, as well as self-hypnosis using recorded affirmations and suggestions.
Delta 0.2hz - 3hz Deep, dreamless sleep and the body is healing itself and "resetting" its internal clocks.
Epsilon 0.5hz and below Epsilon waves have been found in extremely deep states of meditation. They are connected with a feeling of complete bliss and compassion. If a meditator reaches the epsilon brain wave state of mind one can experience extreme spiritual and personal insight and inspiration.

Upper Gamma and Epsilon waves seem to be connected and give rise to the highest and strongest healing and spiritual energies in the world. One of the highest and most powerful upper Gamma waves ever detected was on Matthieu Ricard, a french Buddhistic monk known as the most happy man in the world:

Research of consciousness trainer Judith Pennington also revealed some very interesting relationships on reiki masters and their brainwaves:

But brainwaves and life energy is not only isolated to the brain. About 1% of the total neurons you have is located in your guts, all connected to the brain and many more in your heart and other places around your body. And not only that, research has shown that even plant cells have an action potential and form oscillations and there is no neural network there - meaning that also in our body, cell by cell energy transmission is also possible.

The best and most effective way to have the whole neural network fire in sync is to awaken the kundalini. Kundalini is the sexual energy moving up the spine and entering the brain, basically performing brain surgery to remove all energetic blockages to allow the whole neural network to work in sync. Darshans, Drishti, shaktipath, tantra and many other methods have been used in the past to accomplish this with the ultimate goal of enlightenment and beyond where the whole body starts to radiate visible light and eventually dissolve into light - otherwise called the rainbow body of great transference (ja lus powa chenpo)

Kundalini image showing the vagus nerve as the 2 snakes (ida and pingala) and the spinal cord as the center pillar and the wings being the awakened brain.

With the latest reseach (Luc van Loon, Lionel Feuillet and Sagara Y) showing you the brain is extremely flexible and renewable and with the powerful energy called the kundalini it can be understood that the whole body can be transformed into a spiritual vehicle until the point where the energy is so strong that it actually dissolves structure.

Ramalinga Vallalar is one of the few who not only went through these stages but also clearly documented each step on the way to full enlightenment. It is all written down is a book called Thiru Arutpa that basically disclosed 3 clear stages being Sudha Degam, where the body stops aging and actually reverses in age, Pranava Degam - where light is shining through the body and the body does not even cast a shadow anymore on the ground and Gnana degam - the complete dissolvement of the body into light.

Lama Achuck in the first stages of pranava Degam (photo taken in 2010)

Even though there is no conclusive proof that the blackboard is something beyond structure, the studies above all point towards the fact the the blackboard is beyond structure and in meditation the blackboard lures you in and brings you ultimately home.

So what is the blackboard?

The blackboard is actually the divine itself. It is the source of all existance like the ocean is the source of all the waves.

It is also referred to as the base, the allground, gnas lugs, or the absolute.

You cannot directly describe it nor really understand it nor be it. At best you can say you can dissolve into it.

Entering nirvikalpa samadhi, a very deep state of meditation which is similar to general anesthesia or deep sleep, there is no more you, no more time perception, no more space perception, no more perception whatsoever and also no more consciousness nor awareness. In this state there is no choice, cause, control, thinking, recognizing, understanding, being, doing and having. All these belong to the mind. What remains is the blackboard or divine and other people who are near such a person feel the divine energy radiating from their body and in the east this is called Satsang and such a person is called a SatGuru.

Sat is another name for the blackboard as is often used in India. Dharmakaya is the word used in Tibet. It is the absolute freedom and void of all existence.

Rens Hendriks (Our spiritual teacher (SatGuru) from the Netherlands since 2002)

Not that long ago Rens Hendriks accepted a medical team to measure his brain activity during a satsang (healing) session. To their amazement his brain activity was absolute zero, something not possible except in deep coma. In this state the blackboard / Sat or divine has all the possibilities of helping another dissolve his or her identifications and enter freedom.

But Sat is not the only property of the blackboard. It also is the basis of luminescence. Without the blackboard, objects are not visible. Compare it to the sun that illuminates the planets. Without the sun, planets are not visible but the sun does not know it is the source of visibility. This luminescence is called Chid in India and Sambhogakaya in Tibet.

Chid is sentience itself. All of existance emerges out of Sat including the feeling of beingness and thought. This emerging is sentience and is luminescence. In Buddhism when this emerging state becomes clear it is called "clear light or Osel".

But this blackboard has another property that is even more amazing. It is the source of and radiates love and bliss. This is called ananda in India and Nirmanakaya in Tibet.

So one can say all of reality and beyond into non-duality, nothingness and infinity can be summed up in one word:

- SatChidAnanda - The 3 Buddha dimensions - (Dharmakaya - Sambhogakaya - Nirmanakaya)

also known in Buddhism as essence, nature and compassionate responsiveness

Nonexistence or Sat equates to freedom and joy. You can say everything takes place inside this freedom as a joyous play of light (Chid) and any action is of a compassionate nature (ananda). However, the moment the brain / mind starts to identify itself with anything inside this freedom, the ego is born and misery starts.

Satsang, Dzogchen and self-inquiry are methods to dissolve the ego back into this nonexistence state where it came from and give way for the Sat to enter and flow through the body (called kundalini awakening in India and Tummo in Tibet).

Darshan, Drishti and shaktipath / sivapath are the 3 Buddha dimensions tools to awaken and develop the kundalini and burning the ego and karma on its way. The emptiness you see in the pictures of Buddhists and Hindu saints (the emptiness inside the rings around their body) is the blackboard or Sat that remains. The flames indicate the kundalini that is burning the mental identifications away in a blissful fire.

Shiva (Hinduism)

Labdron (Buddhism)

Tirthankara (Jainism)

This is what true Enlightenment entails

In this state you are no more

In this state there is also no more hope

In this state there are no more desires

In this state there is no more fear

In this state the universe takes place inside you

In this state there is only freedom

In this state life is just magical

In this state You are finally home...


Our example:

Ramalinga Vallalar
(click here for more info about Vallalar)
Who attained the highest state of realization called the Rainbow body of great transference in the first month of 1875 in Tamil Nadu, south India.

My Teacher:

Dzogchen Tsoknyi Rinpoche who initiated me into Dzogchen Buddhism (Mingyur Yeshe became my Buddhistic name)

Our satsangs / darshans / Dzogchen meditation and Drishti's are in silence, no talking or teachings and are for free. Everyone is welcome to join but understand you will not be joining a group or movement as we belief absolute freedom is an individual path free from dependency and you should use all the tools available but always remain free from them.

We hope we can spread this joy and freedom to anyone we come in contact with...


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