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You do not exist. There is only pure awareness, a product of the brain.
The simple fact is that you, the sense of Self as a separate entity, do not exist, it only seems like it does. In truth there is nothing real about you. You are not the body (you only identify yourself with it - this is my body), you are not the mind or brain (if this were to be true than stop thinking for 2 minutes) and you are not the soul or spirit (explained later). You are also not an infinite being separate from the body nor are you able to merge or dissolve into the divine. You are simply a software-program of the brain called awareness that arises out of deep sleep and subsides back into it.
Awareness is the ability to perceive. Without perceptions there is no such thing as awareness as can be easily observed in general anesthesia where even the sense of time has ceased. This awareness arises when different parts of the brain work together, specifically in the angular gyrus, a section of the brain below the crown chakra, where all the senses come together to create a perfect mirror image of the outside world. To sense perceptions however you need an ego or I in awareness, but this I is illusionary. All senses are digitalised before it enters the brain, so no smell, sight, sound, touch or taste travels through neurons, only the digital translation of it. All this information comes together in the angular gyrus, but there is no projector there displaying the senses again for the ego. It comes together and becomes awareness itself - a state also referred to as oneness when there is no I viewing it. When the brain also creates an I it becomes possible to view these perceptions what is referred to as sentience, but it is all based on the illusion that there is an I.
The more a person enters into a state of pure awareness the happier that person becomes. It is the identification of the mind with all the garbage in the brain that creates the illusion of an ego / a feeling of self / that in turn brings up all the misery and despair in one's life.
The state of full awakening is where the ego or sense of self is dissolved, yet there is still the ability to perceive and experience. The moment when sentience itself is being dissolved in meditation, pure awareness takes over and there will be no more states like deep sleep, dream or wake state but only the state of clear light (Turiya). One can go even further and dissolve the body into clear light what is referred to as the rainbow body, the ultimate and highest attainment in meditation.
All these advanced states of meditation would not be possible without the help of a powerful energy called the kundalini. The kundalini energy (also called Tummo in Tibetan) is the sexual energy rising up the spine and into the brain and reorganizing the neural network in the brain so that it will dissolve the identifications in it. Self-inquiry is actually a meditation technique where the energy is aimed specifically at the neural network to kill the identification of self. To show you that this is actually a neural network rearrangement, watch what happened to Jill Bolte when she had a brain stroke.
Jill Bolte Taylor's stroke of insight
Here are some very interesting findings that can happen with the brain and awareness when things go wrong, showing you that you do not exist and that awareness is just a brain product:
The neurobiologist Roger Sperry discovered that one side of the brain wasn't aware of what the other side was seeing when the corpus callosum was damaged (a bundle of fibers connecting the left and right hemispheres of the brain). In an experiment, patients could describe only images that reached the left side of the brain, because the ability to speak is located on that side. However, they seemed unaware of images that reached only the right side of the brain. Yet if they were asked to use their left hand (controlled by the right side of the brain) to indicate the image that had just been shown to the right side of the brain, they could do so. So on an unconscious level they had access to information that reached the right side. The left side of the brain then made up a story combining the information from both sides of the brain. The story was logical to the patients but completely incomprehensible to their surroundings. When the right side of the brain registered a written instruction to stand up and walk away, a patient obeyed. When asked why he did so, he didn't say, "You just asked me to," because he hadn't consciously registered the instruction. So he made up a reason to explain his behavior: "I'm just going to get some hot chocolate."
Lack of oxygen in the angular gyrus such as in near death experiences can create the idea of out of body experiences. Researchers have placed playing cards on top of cabinets in the rooms of patients in order to test whether people see the cards when they are ostensibly floating above their bodies. As you might expect, patients who felt they were leaving their bodies haven't been able to identify the cards. Even more interesting, one of Dick Swaab's phD students had an out of body experience when he was 34 years old where he saw himself lying on the ground and his wife was calling his name in panic. The interesting part here is that he could hear his wife's voice next to him, rather than below him.
My own experience also shows that something is wrong with the idea of exteriorization and remote viewing. In 2000 I was experimenting a lot with leaving the body (exteriorization) and going to other places on the planet and even the solar system and beyond. I remember pushing people while being exterior and they later confirmed they felt something at that time so I was pretty convinced that this all was real. I also viewed the backside of the moon and saw all kinds of buildings that on internet I found other people saw as well. Then in 2004 something magical happened. I was introduced to a book called Silence of the heart (from Robert Adams) and in it, it explained in details the practice of self-inquiry. This practice in a nut shell is all about the simply question: "Who am I". Now I knew for sure who I was, I had many, many past life memories that were very vivid and real (I even verified it by going to London to see if my past life was correct, which it was.) Exteriorization was very real and in between lifes was also very real (I knew exactly when I picked up this body and dropped my last body in London etc etc.) However in 2004 when I was in my bedroom and went exterior again, looking at my body from the corner of the room, I started doing self-inquiry - while exterior - and here the magic started. Within 20 to 30 minutes everything flipped inside out. Instead of me looking at the room and the body, I became the room and body without any viewpoint in it! The only thing there was, was the room with the body on the bed, no more me or viewpoint. In other words, there is only awareness and there is no such thing as a you or viewpoint or soul that can go exterior and do anything. This is pure oneness. You are that, you are experience itself, you are what is perceived, you are awareness itself.
But this awareness is not separate from the body. In February 2015 I had to go under general anesthesia and lost all awareness, including time. I had a couple of similar
events before this called nirvikalpa samadhi (a deep state of meditation) where I suddenly lost 30 to 40 minutes in meditation with a cold body. In these states, there is no more awareness either, which clearly showed me that awareness is a product of the brain. A similar thing happens in deep sleep (without dream) where awareness takes a deep dive.
So if there is no such thing as a soul or spirit or awareness that means past life memories, however real, have another explanation.
So I started to question the memories of past lifes and put it to the test. For sure they were real to me because all the emotions and pain I could feel were real, not imaginary. So I took two events that were extremely real to me. One was an event that took place 460 years ago in Florence where my wife slowly died in my arms due to an illness. This event was filled with grief and I must have been crying deeply for over 2 hours when I came in contact with it. After releasing all the grief and pain around the event I remember I was also released from the automatic response of always saying yes to any request from a women who was crying. So an obvious conclusion would be; this trauma was locked inside the body / mind / spirit for 460 years causing reactive behavior.
Another event took place about 9000 years ago in northern India where I was a teacher and also had a very nice Indian wife. When my wife died in that lifetime she did not acquire a new body but stayed with me in spiritual form (like a guide) and about 15 years ago I found this event and could finally give her the freedom to go and start a new life herself. This released me from a feeling of always having to look for my spiritual soulmate.
So both events were influencing my whole life without me knowing where the influence came from until the moment of release.
So here comes the test. Which lifetime was longer ago (I used a sort of lie detector to see
how the answer would read) To my amazement, the life 460 years ago was longer ago then the life of 9000 years ago. Then I tried it with many other examples and all were 50% correct and 50% incorrect. Something was wrong here.
I also researched some other people who could vividly remember their past lifes and what was really interesting is that many would describe a duplicate life, such as being mother Mary. I must have met at least 4 people who were absolutely convinced that they were mother Mary in a past incarnation. Something wrong here as well.
Then I found not only duplicate lifes myself but also double lifes, multiple bodies, multiple beings in the same body and the story became stranger and stranger. Also the time between body death and acquiring a new body did not seem to align with a constant truth. I was clearly influenced by what I was reading and who was giving me sessions and what kind of sessions. In the beginning it seemed that in between 2 lifes there was a kind of alien story and forceful implanting being done to force me back into a new body. This was strongly influenced by scientology. When I entered the spiritual world with teachers like Brandon Bays and other energy work, these in between life stories changed into angels and crystal domains and when I entered India with their rituals and mediation I saw Shiva and other Indian saints helping me in between 2 lifes. Well reading the Tibetan book of the death I can image that I would be seeing Buddhas that would be helping me and if I were going into deep hypnosis with Dolores Cannon I would be visiting friendly aliens among other.
Then Access consciousness (techniques and processes to make someone more conscious) undoubtably showed me that most of the mental garbage creating reactive behavior (more then 99%) is not mine at all but from other people, past or present, that I was linked to. By simply giving it back, it unlocked and disappeared.
Now with the above understanding that there is no you, only awareness, and that something is wrong with past life memories and that most reactive behavior and charge is not even yours, it became crystal clear that there is no such thing as reincarnation, no such thing as a you and awareness is just a brain product, just like urine is a product of the kidneys.
It seems awareness can connect itself to memories of long ago and be influenced by them. Just like a normal memory that comes alive when awareness meets it, the same counts for awareness meeting memories stored in time and space (to be more precise Epigenetic code (adding memory to DNA of past generations as is clearly shown in family constellations) + a sort of quantum entanglement of awareness with the rest of the universe). This immediately explains why reiki can be given to someone in the future or past or on the other side of the planet. If reiki is nothing else but awareness linking to another awareness, the whole story becomes easily understood.
But what about memories in near death experiences and deep general anesthesia?
Well a really interesting study came from Romanian doctors who noticed odd EEG brain activity in a patient who had lapsed into a coma while under the influence of anti-seizure medication. Researchers at the University de Montreal looked into this and put 26 cats under deep anesthesia (cats have 9 lifes :) and recorded their brain activity in the upper cortical regions and hippocampus (deep inside the brain). In all of the cats, a previously undocumented “ripple event” was evident in the hippocampus after EEG read-outs went “flat,” indicating a silenced cortex. The results appeared to replicate what had been seen in the human patient from the Romanian doctors.
As was previously understood, once a brain goes flat line, a person would be considered brain dead and could not have any experiences during that time. However a famous book written by Dr. Alexander called "proof of heaven" showed otherwise, where he entered into deep coma with no brain activity and journeyed beyond this world and encountered an angelic being who guided him into the deepest realms of super-physical existence. There he met, and spoke with, the Divine source of the universe itself.
So with these new findings from the Montreal team, it seems the brain is not dead at all after flat-line and is still able to produce awareness and experience. In hypnotism it is possible to access this memory during general anesthesia and near death experiences, but many of such experiences are dream like and much influenced by the person giving it. The tunnel with light that is often seen in near death experiences is another interesting phenomena that is also experienced by fighter pilots when pulling excessive G forces. It seems that when blood flow decreases in the eyes, a tunnel vision with light at the end of the tunnel appears in the brain.
So if all is just mechanical, you should be able to artificially duplicate consciousness...
it is already done:
What is life?
Life is a set of biological interrelated activities (chemical interactions) that interact to achieve a result, such as survival. This biological process can also be synthesized in a lab such as artificial but living bacteria from Craig Venter's lab.
DNA is basically the blueprint of how to build the body and the software is the mother's and father's mind with later all the outside influences as well.
Life energy and awareness is one and the same thing. Reiki, kundalini, Qigong and all other spiritual energies are a form of this life energy. Life energy in physiology is called an action potential and is a short-lasting event in which the electrical membrane potential of a neuron cell rapidly rises and falls, following a consistent trajectory to provide cell-to-cell communication. A neuron that emits an action potential is often said to "fire" :
Action Potential in a neuron(life energy)
When large numbers of neurons synchronise their "fire", it will give rise to neural oscillations, otherwise called brainwaves. This can be measured using EEG.
Lambda 200 Hz and up
Unconditional loving-kindness and compassion - enlightened state.
Gamma 27 Hz and up
This is associated with the formation of ideas, language and memory processing, and various types of learning.
Beta 12hz - 27hz
This is generally the mental state most people are in during the day and most of their waking lives.
Alpha 8hz - 12hz
Awake but relaxed and not processing much information. When you get up in the morning and just before sleep, you are naturally in this state. When you close your eyes your brain automatically starts producing more alpha waves.
Theta 3hz - 8hz
Light sleep or extreme relaxation. Theta is also a very receptive mental state that has proven useful for hypnotherapy, as well as self-hypnosis using recorded affirmations and suggestions.
Delta 0.2hz - 3hz
Deep, dreamless sleep and the body is healing itself and "resetting" its internal clocks.
Epsilon 0.5hz and below
Epsilon waves have been found in extremely deep states of meditation. They are connected with a feeling of complete bliss and compassion. If a meditator reaches the epsilon brain wave state of mind one can experience extreme spiritual and personal insight and inspiration.
Upper Gamma and Epsilon waves seem to be connected and give rise to the highest and strongest healing and spiritual energies in the world. One of the highest and most powerful upper Gamma waves ever was detected on Matthieu Ricard, a french Buddhistic monk known as the most happy man in the world:
Research of consciousness trainer Judith Pennington also reveil some very interesting results on reiki masters and their brainwaves:
But brainwaves and life energy is not only isolated to the brain. Research has shown that even plant cells have an action potential and form oscillations. In the human body, once the kundalini has awakened the whole spinel cord and the vagus nerve acts like one big action potential and it is not only the brain that produces awareness anymore but the whole body.
Kundalini image showing the vagus nerve as the 2 snakes and the spinel cord as the center pillar and the wings being the awakened brain.
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Well wait a moment, who is actually experiencing all this? When I am dreaming I can see, hear and feel without using my sense organs, how is that possible? A computer does not really see, feel or hear anything, it just computes. Is this not prove enough that there is more to me then just a brain program?
And if I am just a brain and neural product, what is the use of meditation and anything spiritual for that matter?
What is the purpose of anything if I am not real?
The You cannot and never will understand that it does not exist until it dives deep within and inquires who it really is.
Knowing that you do not exist and awareness is just a brain product (program), this will give rise to true happiness, bliss and admiration for all existence, good or bad, and you will be free from it. This is called enlightenment.
If you want to go beyond this freedom and joy, the path towards the rainbow body is yours.
The rainbow body is a state where you as awareness and body dissolve in bliss and joy as opposed to suffering or numbness when the end of life approaches.
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Entering nirvikalpa samadhi, a very deep state of meditation which is similar to general anesthesia or deep sleep, there is no more you, no more time perception, no more space perception, no more perception whatsoever and also no more consciousness nor awareness. In this state there is no choice, cause, control, thinking, recognizing, understanding, being, doing and having. All these belong to the mind. In truth there is only the absolute nothingness out of which existence wakes and sleeps.
This nothingness is called Sat in India. It is the absolute freedom and void of all existence.
Everything that awareness perceives as separate is called Chid in India.
If Chid is being fully experienced by awareness without pushing, pulling, avoiding or wanting, it dissolves and Sat remains. This dissolving creates a beautiful bodily sensation called bliss which is called Ananda in India. This process of dissolving the Chid in Sat is called the kundalini..
So one can say all of reality and beyond into non-duality, nothingness and infinity can be summed up in one word:
- SatChidAnanda -
Nonexistence or Sat equates to freedom and joy. You can say everything takes place inside this freedom as a joyous play of light. However, the moment the brain starts to identify itself with anything inside this freedom, the ego is born and misery starts.
Satsang and self-inquiry are methods to dissolve the ego back into the nonexistence state where it came from and give way for the Sat to enter and flow through the body (called kundalini awakening in India).
Darshan and shaktipath / sivapath are Sat tools to awaken and develop the kundalini and burning the ego and karma on its way. The emptiness you see in the pictures of Buddhists and Hindu saints (the circles around them) is the Sat that remains. The flames indicate the kundalini that is burning the Chid away in a blissful fire.
Doing self-inquiry and listening or reading satsang lectures are in the end all brain exercises to make itself understand that it does not exist. This creates a state called Self-realization or awakening. Once the state of full awakening has taken place and there is enough emptiness or Sat created inside the body (the kundalini / shushumna channel is wide enough due to all the brain programs being deleted) the realization will arise that nothing awakens at all and everything is pure amazing beauty, call it divine or whatever.
Do not confuse the divine with a being or creator or controller however, as no such thing exists. It is the universe itself with all its beauty, including the so called ugliness. In this state, call it enlightenment or God realization there is only absolute freedom without fear, desire and hope in a play of light called the universe with all its amazing ingredients.
Who or what is God? - well what is the true source of anything? - Nothing, just like you.
Once you realise this you see that everything, be it biological or physical has the same non-existant source as you. If you zoom into anything close enough you end up with this nothingness. For those scientifically inclined, just look at the latest theories such as the matrix theory that tries to explain what a particle is by describing two- and five-dimensional objects called branes in eleven-dimensional supergravity at low energies. Well these branes are again nothing, just like the edge of the expanding universe is nothing.
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