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Axioms

The prime axiom is: Perceiving is the world.

This is the final and absolute truth in the search for who you are and where everything came from. This axiom settles in the end of a spiritual journey as a realization and cannot be understood by the mind. The following 3 sub-axioms help the understanding of this prime axiom.

1) When you meditate on "who am I?", you will find that all you can feel, experience and sense as you, will dissolve and you will end in silence, emptiness and nothingness - not being this nor that - yet without you nothing is.

2) When you meditate on all emotions, densities in the body / mind / energy field, stresses - basically all karma, you will dissolve them completely and realize in the end that everything (inside and outside) is empty in nature and free - pure consciousness remains.

3) When you meditate on desires and resistances you will find love at its core and when you meditate on love you find yourself as life itself. When you separate yourself from love, existential suffering is the result.

In India step 1 is known as Sat, step 2 is known as Chit and step 3 is known as Ananda - SatChitAnanda - that which you truly are.

In Tibet step 1 is known as Dharmakaya, step 2 is known as Sambhogakaya and step 3 is known as Nirmanakaya - that which is your essence, nature and compassionate responsiveness.

All 3 steps are integrated in a process called kundalini awakening (Tummo in Tibetan language) and development. Basically the kundalini is the sexual energy moving up the spine and into the brain, reprogramming the brain and setting you free, moving you into service for the world in bliss.


Lets look at the axioms more closely

Who am I ?

Who you think you are and who you feel you are is not who you truly are, it is an illusion created by the brain.

You are not thinking itself (in other words, you are not what you think). Thinking is separate from you otherwise you could not listen to the thoughts. Also most of "your" thought are not even yours as you have not created them. Just sit in silence for a couple of minutes not creating any thought and you will find all kinds of thoughts still happening.

You are also not who you feel you are because feeling is separate from you otherwise you could not feel. Feelings are happening outside of you and you are sensing them. How can you feel pain if you are it?

You are also not the body, you have a body. When you are dreaming you are completely unaware of the physical body, yet you still are.

You are also not the sum of all your experiences and learnings. These are all things you do and have done, hence are all exterior from you. You can say I made it my own but anything you learn or experience you can also loose like in Alzheimer. But you still are, with or without memory. You can also say I am not the same without my experiences or past learnings. Well things like 'I am a father or mother' or 'I am a scholar' or 'I am a good tennis player' etc. are all descriptions of what you do or what has happened to you - not who you are. The 'I am' is you and the next thing is what you do or what has happened to you - 'I am eating' - 'I am a woman' - 'I am not the same'.

You are also not the brain because when the brain dies, structurally everything remains the same. The only difference is that the neurons are not communicating with each other anymore - no more electrical activity and no more synapsis. But structurally everything remains the same.

So are you the electrical activity in the brain?

Well most of the electrical activity taking place inside the brain you are completely unaware of. For example:

The cerebrum, the large, outer part of the brain, controls reading, thinking, learning, speech, emotions and planned muscle movements like walking. It also controls vision, hearing and other senses. Again all things you can do or abilities you have but not who you are. You are completely unaware of why you understand a language or how movement happens - it all takes place automatically. You are not the automatic understanding of the English language.

The cerebellum, in the back of the brain, controls balance, coordination and fine muscle control (e.g., walking). It also functions to maintain posture and equilibrium and in 2017 scientists have found a connection with the reward response in the cerebellum as well but the whole cerebellum does not posses awareness. Again body balance and movement (and even the award response) are things that are happening to you automatically. It is not who you are. You can say it defines me but then you are identifying your body with who you are as the body is influenced not you.

The brain stem, at the bottom of the brain, connects the cerebrum with the spinal cord. It includes the midbrain, the pons, and the medulla. It controls fundamental body functions such as breathing, eye movements, blood pressure, heartbeat, and swallowing. Again it is not you that is doing this but the brain.

But it also means many things that you think you are causing or doing is not you but the brain. Most people belief they have a free will, but studying Akinetic mutism (patients tending neither to move nor speak) and Alien hand syndrome (AHS - a condition in which a person experiences their limbs acting seemingly on their own, without control over the actions) a team of medical examiners from the Beth Israel Deaconess Medical center found that this is all coordinated in the Precuneus and Cortex cingularis anterior area of the brain and that free will is but a feeling or idea without ground. The brain decides, not the mind nor you.

So are you the mind?

Well is there a mind without thought? It depends on how you want to define the mind, but generally the mind is defined as the collection of thoughts and memories one has. You have a mind because you have thought and memories. You are not thought or memories. Think about the expression "I have lost my mind" and you see the whole thing is exterior from who you are.

So what about awareness, are you awareness ?

Awareness comes into existence when the brain is turned on, similar to turning on a computer and the operating system comes alive. When somebody is in deep general anesthesia (medically induced coma) the brain is almost off and when the anesthesia wears off, it is like turning on the computer. Also awareness can change depending on what parts of the brain are turned on and how much (with the exception of the cerebellum - no awareness). These different levels of awareness can be easily observed in deep sleep versus the awake state and the different states of altered awareness due to drugs.

It would seem that when the brain is turned off, awareness is gone, so you are no more - hence you are a product of the brain. But lets look at this more carefully...

Awareness is the ability to perceive and experience. Without perceptions (including the perception of time and thought) there is no such thing as awareness - similar to deep general anesthesia. Do not just read this sentence but proof it for yourself. If you are outside this universe, nothing to see or hear, are you aware? Yes you are because you can think. But if thinking is just another perception and that also disappears are you aware? Not anymore but you still are. To go a step deeper, what happens if you remove time as a perception ?

So when you turn off the computer, you actually turn off the ability to perceive - but do you turn off the you as well ?
You are aware of something, you are not awareness itself. If there is nothing to be aware of, it is a dead end to prove if you still exist or not, as there is no way to reflect an answer, so another approach has to be taken.

Are you consciousness itself ?

Consciousness is the state or quality of awareness or of being aware of an external object or something within oneself.
( It has been defined variously in terms of sentience, awareness, subjectivity, the ability to experience or to feel, wakefulness, having a sense of selfhood or soul, the fact that there is something "that it is like" to "have" or "be" it, and the executive control system of the mind. )

Being aware of external objects has nothing to do with who you are. External objects do not define you.
Being aware of something within oneself is a perception and is not who you are and does not define you. Anything within you is not you.
The executive control system of the mind is the brain, not you.

The ability to experience or to feel - sentience - a sense of selfhood - sense of beingness. This is getting closer to the answer but not yet. The ability to experience or to feel is a brain ability. Without a nervous system or brain activity the ability is gone. Beingness is a feeling and you are not a feeling. Sentience is even closer to the answer but sentience is a doingness in the brain and you are not doingness. In deep meditation seeing becomes being and there is no sentience or recognizing what you see.

But awareness, consciousness and sentience cannot happen without you.

So this You that can be aware, is conscious of the world and that can sense things, is that also a brain product?

The neurobiologist Roger Sperry discovered that one side of the brain wasn't aware of what the other side was seeing when the corpus callosum was damaged (a bundle of fibers connecting the left and right hemispheres of the brain). The right eye that is partially connected to the left brain hemisphere cannot see images, but conceptually understands them and can talk about them. The left eye on the other hands really sees the images but cannot conceptually talk about them.
In an experiment, patients could describe only images that reached the left side of the brain, because the ability to speak is located on that side. However, they seemed unaware of images that reached only the right side of the brain. Yet if they were asked to use their left hand (controlled by the right side of the brain) to indicate the image that had just been shown to the right side of the brain, they could do so. So on an unconscious level they had access to information that reached the right side. The left side of the brain then made up a story combining the information from both sides of the brain. The story was logical to the patients but completely incomprehensible to their surroundings.

When the right side of the brain registered a written instruction to stand up and walk away, a patient obeyed. When asked why he did so, he didn't say, "You just asked me to," because he hadn't consciously registered the instruction. So he made up a reason to explain his behavior: "I'm just going to get some hot chocolate."

In other words if you separate the left and right hemisphere of the brain, you separate consciousness into 2 parts, also awareness is split and the ability to sense.

Similar to hypnotism where a hidden command makes a person jump up from his seat when a trigger word is mentioned. The person is not aware of why he reacts. But reacting is not who you are, listening is not who you are, writing or reading is not who you are and doingness is not who you are.

But who you are can be turned off and on like a computer. In deep general anesthesia or in deep sleep the you is no more or so it seems. So is it awareness / consciousness or is it you that is turned off ?

When really close to deep sleep (or just coming out of general anesthesia or under the influence of heavy drugs) you are still aware of inputs from the outside world or dreams but the awareness is minimal. So the question here is, are you less there or are the signals less.

From brain scans it would seem that there is less activity (going into delta brain waves and below) and surely less awareness. But who you are cannot be proven nor refuted in this manner. If the brain does not produce signals in the form of time / perceptions / thought there is no way to know if there is still a you or not. So this approach leads to a dead end.

Are you just a software program in the brains ?

So does the brain create a 'digital you' alongside the perceptions that make up awareness ? In other words is the you just an illusion created by a software program running in the brains?

All the digital codes running in the brain

Another way of asking this question is: can a software program really 'see' ?

Anyone who knows a bit about programming knows this is impossible to program. A program can only compute, compare data to other data but actually sensing stuff it cannot. But can we actually sense stuff or is it also an illusion that we do ? Keep in mind that we are not really seeing but actually receiving a digital code from the eyes and other sense organs that flow into our brains.

To get these answers we have to turn to quantum physics to see what perceiving / measuring really is.

In quantum physics it has been irrefutably shown that the observer collapses the wave function, which basically means without an observer, nothing exists and when an observation happens a pure methematical wave collapses into form. A software program first of all cannot really observe and second cannot collapse a wave function that would make the world appear out of nothing as it is.

But where does observation or measurement take place? It are the brain cells that measure, not you - or is it ? The eyes rods and cones measure, not you. But you can say the rods and cones in the eye do not see. Well how do you see when there is only a digital code ? ~ Here it becomes tricky as you will see later in the text on this webpage. Do brain cells or neurons really measure ? No they do not, it is all mechanical. So what is measurement and what is sentience ?

The fact that there is perceiving, creates the world as it is, including the brain so that which perceives lies prior to the universe and time itself. It is not part of it, it is causing it. Later on in this text you find a more detailed but simple explanation of quantum physics and the observer.

If perceiving is the world, or is just a software program running in the brains,both means the world is just a digital code, because the only things really perceived are the digital codes entering our brains via these sense organs and the sense organs receive signals from the outside world in the form of frequencies (energy). There is nothing real outside, only energy. Both possibilities also lead to the same answer. There is no real you. There is only ditital code (waves, energy). The awareness of perceiving is a brain activity. If the sense organs are distroyed, no signals, no awareness.

So who are you ?

You are not inside nor outside this universe and you do not have a location in it. You are not part of time, you are not subjected to birth nor death. You cannot be influenced by anything in the universe including yourself as there is no way to know yourself without a brain reflection. Everything perceived is a brain process and has nothing to do with you ~ yet without you there is no brain nor perceptions.

You are life itself, the unseen and undetectable motive force that wants to sense and life. The idea that you are a different being compared to a tree is an illusion created by the brain. A tree cannot see nor hear, yet can sense and remember. Is is life that senses and makes it possible for memory to work. This life is who you are, not separate from any other life, but life as a whole. A dimensionless ocean reaching out in love and interacting as life.

 


A deeper look into the 'You'

This Ego program (who you think you are) shows up in awareness (operating system) as thought, creating the illusion that it is real and that it can do things, have things and be things. Yet all thought and perceptions are digitalized when it enters the brain so no smell, sight, sound, touch, taste or even thought travel through neurons, only the digital translation of it. So even if there was a real you floating around in your brain, there is nothing to "see" - only digital code.

 

Sheila Nirenberg, Cornell University - expert in the field of neural coding

Research has shown us that all these digitalized senses come together in a place called the angular gyrus, a section of the brain below the crown chakra, that produces a viewpoint. When this part of the brain gets damaged or lacks oxygen, you end up experiencing yourself floating outside the body (exteriorization, also known as out of body experience) and other viewpoint distortions - so nobody exteriorizes, it is just the brain computing differently.

Awareness on the other hand arises throughout the whole brain without any specific location and is extremely flexible. When neurologist Lionel Feuillet from Marseille received a 44 year old patient who was missing 90% of his brain he was amazed at the fact that this man was living a normal life - this shook up the medical world quite deeply. Also Brandon and Brittany Buell had an amazing story of their newborn child in 2014 that was missing most of his brain but otherwise functioned normal and even speaks nowadays. So this shows you the brain is also extremely flexible and re-programmable.
Earlier research from Luc van Loon from the Medical university in Maastricht already showed that the amount of muscle protein produced can potentially renew muscle cells within 6 to 8 weeks time. Well, in February 2018, he found that in the brain the generation of protein is 3 to 4 times higher then in muscles, potentially rewiring the entire brain at incredible speeds - this is just unbelievable. It was previously understood that neurons in the cerebral cortex, for example, are not replaced at all when they die, well this might be completely misunderstood. A product from among other strawberries called Fisetin for example has already been shown to produce new nerve cells in the hippocampus and a herb from Gabon called Iboga has been shown to create new brain cells in the dopamine center among other so there is much more to learn here. (Journal of Neurochemistry article from Sagara Y, Vanhnasy J and Maher P.

However this viewpoint or You is not real, it is just a computer / brain program. The moment when you hold onto the YOU feeling, you will see that it starts to dissolve and disappear. It is just a feeling and feeling is just a perception and perceiving / sensing is just awareness of... The only thing happening here are thoughts and perceptions mixing around in awareness and when thought ceases, pure awareness and pure perceiving remains and the person is happy and joyful without reason. It is the identification of the mind with all the garbage in the brain that creates the illusion of an ego / a feeling of self / that in turn brings up all the misery and despair in one's life. In other words the moment thinking starts, the I is born and when thinking ceases, pure awareness as oneness remains.

Because awareness is just a brain product, it is the rewiring of the brain that produces the higher states of awareness. The less interference and programs there are messing with perceptions / thought the more clear 'you' shine through.

Click here to see the different levels of realizations in meditation (different levels of higher awareness)

One of the best and most effective methods of achieving nirvana (the realization that you are not an individual or separate from anything - the end of the cycle of life and death) is the Buddhistic meditation called Trekchod (techniques for dissolving the you) and Togal (receiving spiritual help from the living and ascended masters) in combination with a powerful energy called the kundalini (basically raising the sexual energy into the brain and rewiring the brain with this energy), but as Jill Bolte showed, a brain stroke can bring you to nirvana as well, showing you that it is the rewiring of the brain that brings forth the state of nirvana.

Jill Bolte Taylor's stroke of insight

 

Similar to Jill Bolte is the experiences of Lauren Marks aneurysm hitting the language center.


What about the Soul and Spirit ?

Here are some very interesting findings that can happen with the brain and awareness when things start to go wrong, showing and proving that there is no such thing as an individual SOUL or separate SPIRIT.

Lack of oxygen in the angular gyrus such as in near death experiences (when the blood flow reduces in the angular gyrus) can create the idea of out of body experiences. Researchers have placed playing cards on top of cabinets in the rooms of patients in order to test whether people see the cards when they are ostensibly floating above their bodies. As you might expect, patients who felt they were leaving their bodies haven't been able to identify the cards. Even more interesting, one of Dick Swaab's phD students had an out of body experience when he was 34 years old where he saw himself lying on the ground and his wife was calling his name in panic. The interesting part here is that he could hear his wife's voice next to him, rather than below him. This clearly shows that exteriorization is a product of the brain, however real it may seem.

My own experience also shows that something was wrong with the idea of exteriorization and remote viewing. In 2000 I was experimenting a lot with leaving the body (exteriorization) and going to other places on the planet and even the solar system and beyond. This was mainly triggered by Scientology methods that me and my wife were into at the time (a long time ago :). I remember pushing people while being exterior and they later confirmed they felt something at that time so I was pretty convinced that all this was real (later I found that quantum entanglement in awareness was the reason they felt the push). I also viewed the backside of the moon and saw all kinds of buildings that on internet I found other people saw as well.

First photo of the backside of the moon from moonlander Chang’e-4 (januari 2019) - yea no buildings :)

Then in 2004 something magical happened. I was introduced to a book called Silence of the heart (from Robert Adams) and in it, it explained in details the practice of self-inquiry. This practice in a nut shell was all about the simply question: "Who am I". Now I knew for sure who I was, I had many, many past life memories that were very vivid and real (I even verified it by going to London to see if my past life was correct, which it was.) Exteriorization was very real and in between lifes was also very real (I knew exactly when I picked up this body and dropped my last body in London etc etc.) similar to the findings of Michael Newton disclosed in his book called "Journey of Souls".
However in 2004 when I was in my bedroom and went exterior again, looking at my body from the corner of the room, I started doing self-inquiry - while exterior - and here the magic started. Within 20 to 30 minutes everything flipped inside out. Instead of me looking at the room and the body, I became the room and body without any viewpoint in it! The only thing there was the room with the body on the bed and no more me or viewpoint. Very similar to a dream where there is just the dreamworld without a you specifically in it.

This gave rise to the realization that there is only awareness and there is no such thing as a you or viewpoint or soul that can go exterior and do anything. This is what can be called pure oneness. You are that, you are experience itself, you are what is perceived, you are awareness itself. But this awareness is not separate from the body.

In February 2015 I had to go under general anesthesia and lost all awareness, including time (keep in mind I have been meditating a long time - stabilized in full self-realization and approached the general anesthesia in full awareness and oneness). I had a couple of similar events before this called nirvikalpa samadhi (a deep state of meditation) where I suddenly lost 30 to 40 minutes in meditation with a cold body. In these states, there is no more awareness, no more me, which clearly showed me that awareness and me is a product of the brain. Doing regression therapy and recalling the period of general anesthesia, I found the brain literally making up a story from the unconscious material in the brain while there was no awareness (and no me) during that period. Now I have done about 2000 hours of regression including past life regressions and you name it in the past so I am very familiar with the subject.

Now I realize that the brain causes different levels of identifications / contractions in energy making you belief you are something and making it possible to identify with something as yourself - hence past life memories.

Research has already shown without a doubt that memory is actually stored in the the whole brain using the protein KIBRA (2016 research from Li Gan from the university of California) and that the hippocampus functions like a archivist, storing and recalling this memory (storing memory mostly happens in sleep funny enough).
I remember always having a big question mark with people like Henry Molaison, Clive Wearing and many others who after damage to their hippocampus only remember the last minute of their life and the rest is gone. But letting go of the idea that there is a soul that somehow stores the memory in an energy field around him was the only logical conclusion.

So I started to question the memories of past lifes and put it to the test. For sure they were real to me because all the emotions and pain I could feel were real, not imaginary. So I took two events that were extremely real to me. One was an event that took place 460 years ago in Florence where my wife slowly died in my arms due to an illness. This event was filled with grief and I must have been crying deeply for over 2 hours when I came in contact with it. After releasing all the grief and pain around the event I remember I was also released from the automatic response of always saying yes to any request from a women who was crying. So an obvious conclusion would be; this trauma was locked inside the body / mind / spirit for 460 years causing reactive behavior.

Another event took place about 9000 years ago in northern India where I was a teacher and also had a very nice Indian wife. When my wife died in that lifetime she did not acquire a new body but stayed with me in spiritual form (like a guide) and about 15 years ago I found this event and could finally give her the freedom to go and start a new life herself. This released me from a feeling of always having to look for my spiritual soulmate. So both events were influencing my whole life without me knowing where the influence came from until the moment of release.
So here comes the test. Which lifetime was longer ago (I used a sort of lie detector to see how the answer would read) To my amazement, the life 460 years ago was longer ago then the life of 9000 years ago. Then I tried it with many other examples and all were 50% correct and 50% incorrect. Something was wrong here.
I also researched some other people who could vividly remember their past lifes and what was really interesting is that many would describe a duplicate life, such as being mother Mary. I must have met at least 4 people who were absolutely convinced that they were mother Mary in a past incarnation. Something wrong here as well.
Then I found not only duplicate lifes myself but also double lifes, multiple bodies, multiple beings in the same body and the story became stranger and stranger.

How strange, well if you have the time take a look at a lecture from Dolores Cannon about the convoluted universe:

Also the time between body death and acquiring a new body did not seem to align with a constant truth. I was clearly influenced by what I was reading / believing and who was giving me sessions and what kind of sessions. In the beginning it seemed that in between 2 lifes there was a kind of alien story and forceful implanting being done to force me back into a new body. This was heavily influenced by Scientology among other OT3 level. When I entered the spiritual world with teachers like Brandon Bays and other energy work, these in between life stories changed into angels and crystal domains and when I entered India with their rituals and mediations I saw Shiva and other Indian saints helping me in between death and life. Well I was initiated into Dzogchen Buddhism some time ago and guess what... so if I were going into deep hypnosis with Dolores Cannon I would most likely be visiting friendly aliens among other.

So if past lifes do not exist, where do the memories come from?

Here Access consciousness (techniques and processes to make someone more conscious) undoubtably showed me the answer that most of the mental garbage (such as past life trauma) creating reactive behavior (more then 99%) is not mine at all but from other people, past or present, that I was linked to. By simply asking the question: "who does this belong to" and return it to sender, it unlocked and disappeared.

This also showed me that most of my traumatic past life experiences were actually not mine at all but from my parents and their parents and their parents etc. The event in Florence I found was actually not mine but my great great great great... grandfather and was handed over to me genetically (or energetically linked via genetics) and mentally transferred from my mother during my first 9 month in the womb. Another very interesting fact was that releasing the trauma in myself would also release the trauma in many other people such as the rest of my family, meaning there is also a sort of quantum entanglement happening here.

Another interesting fact happened in 2007 when I was visiting Krishnaveni Amma in south India (a tiger reservation near Papanasam). To make a long story short, I was somehow connected to the animals in the area where Krishnaveni Amma was staying such that I felt the emotions of them all as me. I must have been crying for hours about a certain grief charge that certain monkeys from the area had that was going through me (and making me feel like it was me having these emotions) and felt incredibly relieved when it finally released. The really interesting part here was that I was feeling the grief and not feeling the emotion of something outside of me. Even more interesting, Krishnaveni Amma, who only spoke Tamil and I did not, knew what was going on and told me later via a translator that nature wanted to thank me for something I did without her knowing what happened to me!

This also explained the many strange regression sessions that went back millions of years into strange civilizations and technologies that were very real to me. Well if you are so connected to the universe, you pick up all kind of garbage and one can ask if time even exists...

With all this in mind, it became crystal clear to me that there was no such thing as reincarnation as we know it. All can be explained by the above. Even the Buddhistic enlightened children of past masters clearly showed me something was wrong. Just take a look at the argument of who is the new Karmapa, Ogyen Trinley Dorje or Trinley Thaye Dorje?

I have done research on some of the children of the Bwiti religion in Gabon Africa who, when looking into their eyes, where grand masters and avatars themselves, fully realized beings but not due to thousands of years of meditation and reincarnation, No, they only consume iboga, a psychoactive root from the Tabernanthe Iboga, rewiring their brains into full realization !


But what about memories in near death experiences and deep general anesthesia when there is no brain activity ?

Another really interesting study came from Romanian doctors who noticed odd EEG brain activity in a patient who had lapsed into a coma while under the influence of anti-seizure medication. Researchers at the University de Montreal looked into this and put 26 cats under deep anesthesia (cats have 9 lifes :) and recorded their brain activity in the upper cortical regions and hippocampus (deep inside the brain). In all of the cats, a previously undocumented “ripple event (activity - silence - activity -silence...)” was evident in the hippocampus after EEG read-outs went “flat,” indicating a silenced cortex. The results appeared to replicate what had been seen in the human patient from the Romanian doctors.

As was previously understood, once a brain goes flat line, a person would be considered brain dead and could not have any experiences during that time. But with these new findings from the Montreal team, it seems the brain is not dead at all after flat-line and is still able to produce awareness and experience. Compare this to a blood sample. The blood is not in your body anymore but remains alive for many days. Peter Noble from the University of Washington clearly showed that certain genes in the human body are actually more alive days after body death then when the body is still alive. He also found that stem cells in the body are still alive 17 days after body death.

Not that long ago Dr. Mohamad Koubeissi found the on / off switch of consciousness. It is a tiny part of the brain called the Claustrum. See the video below.

 

Another interesting finding is that the pineal gland (the place where the I thought originates) produces massive amounts of DMT prior to death. Now DMT is a strong hallucinogenic substance also found in Ayahuasca (to be more precise, in Psychotria viridis, Psychotria carthagenensis, or Diplopterys cabrerana - The Ayahuasca is actually an inhibitor that inhibits the breakdown of DMT by enzymes called deamination.)
DMT breaks down the identifications in the brain and releases stress and can induce a state or feeling that he or she is able to “communicate with other intelligent-life forms" and commune with religious entities, humanoid as well as animal form, and even interact with alien life forms. High doses of DMT produce a hallucinatory state that involves sense of “another intelligence” that people sometimes describe as “super-intelligent”, but “emotionally detached”.

A famous book written by Dr. Eben Alexander (a neurosurgeon) called "proof of heaven" is a great example of this, however he himself tries to proof that his DMT trip was all very real and not at all hallucinatory - showing you how real these experiences seem to a person. Dr. Eben Alexander entered into meningitis-induced coma with no higher brain activity (actually the doctor who treated him said he medically induced the coma, but that is besides the point) and journeyed beyond this world and encountered an angelic being who guided him into the deepest realms of super-physical existence. There he met, and spoke with, the Divine source of the universe itself.

In other words, all of this takes place inside the brain and is produced by the brain!

The tunnel with light that is often seen in near death experiences is another interesting phenomena that is also experienced by fighter pilots when pulling excessive G forces. It seems that when blood flow decreases in the eyes (like when the heart stops beating), a tunnel vision, with light at the end of the tunnel, appears in the brain. Again not something mystical but a mere effect of low blood flow (along with a DMT rush creating visions at the end of the tunnel creating beautiful stories contained in many books).

Other really interesting research on similar subjects can be found with Susan Blackmore, Daniel Dennett, David Yaden and our own Dutch researcher, Heleen Slagter.

If you really go deep within and I mean really deep, you will find that you are time itself and that time does not effect you.. Without you, there is no time and there is no world and there is no such thing as continuity or holding on to something or even relationships (all based on time effecting you) - these are illusions. Just like a black hole (inside the event horizon) making time disappear, if you dive deep within yourself, time will disappear as well (nirvikalpa samadhi).

I like to take it even one step further as to say that it is not so much that there is no such thing as a "you" BUT everything including time, form, life, energy, space, thought and anything that can be experienced or perceived is not real and only a digital code exist. And YOU are that digital code. One of the best comparisons is seen in the series Black mirror, episode "San Junipero" - a must see:




A deeper look into Quantum physics

Is the moon there when nobody looks?

This was the question Albert Einstein asked Abraham Pais during a walk regarding quantum theory and the nature of reality.

Einstein was convinced that there were good philosophical grounds for local realism, and he considered it a foundational principle of science. After his death, however, it was shown that local realism, as he described it in his famous EPR paper, is not compatible with the predictions of quantum mechanics, or with physical experiments. If he had lived to see them, it would be fascinating to know how Einstein would have modified his views in light of these results.

Out of all this uncertainty in Quantum Mechanics (QM) came the philosophy known as the Copenhagen school (after the great Dane, Niels Bohr) which states, to put it simply, that nothing happens until someone looks. If all we have in QM are mathematical probabilities that such-and-such will be observed, then until the observation is made, we can only talk about probabilities. As to reality, we must give up hope of understanding it. This was too much for Einstein and Schrödinger to swallow. Can it be that nothing really happens, that there are only probabilities, until someone looks? As Einstein lampooned, “Is the moon only there when we look at it?”

Also John von Neumann concluded that eventually it is you as consciousness making reality.

 

Let's look at this more deeply and see how strange it gets.

To go back to the moon, you never really see the moon, only the light of the sun bouncing off the moon and into your eyes to be translated into a digital code when it enters the optical nerve and eventually into the brain and the collapse of the wave function (making local reality) happens somewhere in the brain but even there scientists are not sure. It is sentience that collapses the wave function and sentience happens way deeper than the initial measurement of light in the rods and cones of the eye.

The problem here is that the moon is never seen, only the sun's light reflected of the surface and into our eyes. The moon itself can be compressed into nothingness as can be seen in black holes that are millions of times heavier then our sun but have collapsed into a point of nothing (A Schwarzschild black hole). Another problem here is that sentience must have happened before the eyes pick up the light, because nothing happens until someone looks. What came first, the tool to measure or the measurement that made the tool

So what is measurement?

As mentioned earlier, you do not measure, but the nerve cells and brain cells do. You do not see as there is only digital code. You do not translate the digital code into a visual 3d mirror world - it is the brain that does this. But the brain is not displaying a 3d world for you anywhere to 'see'  yet without consciously observing the world, nothing exists.

Lets look at this even deeper.

Without measurement, a photon does not exist and is a pure mathematical probability - a wave function. However as you can see in the movie above, the measurement starts with the rhodopsin molecule changing form in the presence of light that in turn starts a cascade of events in the rod cell. It is all mechanical. The end product is a signal in the optic nerve moving into the brain, but this whole process does not posses sentience.

It is like asking: Can a camera see?

The big problem here is that how can a rhodopsin molecule exist in the first place BEFORE measurement. In other words where does the collapse of the wave function start ? The only possible explanation is that it starts at the point of sentience - and that point is YOU.

Photon (light)

Food for thought when sentience causes the wave function to collapse:

1) When you are dreaming, you also "see" but it will do nothing to local realism even though the optic nerve is active (as seen in Rapid eye Movement REM sleep). But while in the dream, for you local realism happens, be it on a different level. So the wave function did collapse.

2) Hallucinations are real for the person who is awake (he observes them) but does not create local realism for others, plus it means that what is being observed can be influenced by chemicals in the brain. Hypnotism goes even further, making people see things and sense them like eating a lemon while there is no lemon. Again local realism has happened but is not the general realism for everyone.

3) If someone is born blind (or became blind before the age of 5), they do not dream visually like we do, yet local reality remains for them in the form of other senses. If past lifes were real or you as a spiritual being separate from the body were real, dreams would occur visually, but they do not. Helen Keller is a great example of someone who turned blind and deaf at the age of 9 month and not only dreams without visuals but also without sound. With this combination people like Helen do not know what thoughts are or emotions, except fear.

4) If a spiritual being would exist it would not absorb light or measure it by any means like the brain does. So how would a spiritual being know or see a photon? If you say it goes through him, well through what and how is it being measured? If you say he absorbs it, with what and how does seeing happen? And this what, how can it reflect? All the answers will lead you to things outside of you and again is not who you are.

5) If the brain "sees" the same problem arises as in point 4. If you are just a software program, how do ones and zeros see?

6) Sentience is an activity (a doingness) in the mind (brain). This can be clearly seen and felt in deep meditation. When this activity silences, seeing becomes being.

With all this in mind, especially point 6 - If you are the digital code it also means you are the outside world. You see because You are !

That would mean the 'real world' is also just a digital code (like a dream). No measurement is needed when beingness is.

This digital code (beingness) is not individual, has no viewpoint, is not separate and is the only thing there is.
An ant also does not see the world but is the world. It is not that the physical ant itself is the world, but life itself is. Who you are and who the ant really is, is one and the same. There is only life. No separate life..

So it is not measurement but beingness that makes reality. When you are no more, the world is no more.

Questions: If someone dies the world remains for everyone else. And why does hypnotism (point 2) create a different world for only one person. And how can a blind person talk to people who see the world if he is the one creating it ?

To answer these lets look at the axioms at the beginning of this webpage:

1) All is empty

2) Seeing / Perceiving becomes Being

3) Life wants to happen because of love

Nobody dies because you do not exist as a person or soul. There is no individual being. There is only a digital code (like in the Black mirror, episode "San Junipero") With this in mind look again at the Questions.

You are "San Junipero"


Can you artificially produce awareness ?

If awareness is a brain product, it is mechanical and you should be able to artificially duplicate it ...
Well, it is already done:

Just take a look at google photo: https://photos.google.com

Or even more fun, help googles neural network by engaging in quick draw: https://quickdraw.withgoogle.com

Here google's deep mind neural network is actually understanding the image and not just working with the name of the file. In google photo the Artificial Neural Network (ANN) can find people and things in your photo collection. If you ask to find all the photo's containing a cat, it will do so even if it is just a tail. It actually "sees" the images.

Take a look at the images below from Google's deep dream Artificial Neural Network (ANN). It almost seems like Google's deep dream is on a DMT trip (actually consciously dreaming). In this example below the ANN is given a static white noise image and is asked to look for life forms:

Static white noise

Google's deep dream ANN findings

Well is the same happening in our brains? Is consciousness nothing more then computational understanding of the neural code entering the brain with another program making you belief - You - can actually see them?

Stop sleeping for a week and hallucinations will mix with reality and you will not know what is real and not anymore (just watch the movie fightclub to get an idea of this).

What about sentience and phenomenological consciousness ?

Sentience is the capacity to feel, perceive, or experience subjectively, something an ANN cannot do. Phenomenological consciousness refers to you undergoing an experience like when you are consciously perceiving the world or for example feeling sad, thirst, pain etc. ANN's cannot do this.

Science has not figured out how to create artificial sentience or phenomenological consciousness yet, but are working on it. The closest they have come is a project called CDP4 - visuo-motor integration. But imagine a robot telling you that he sees the world. If you say I do not belief you, can you prove it ? - What will happen ? Is it not the same with us ?

See the video below about a NAO robot seeing images using IBM True North neural network:

 

This makes one wonder if perceiving is not just another illusion brought up by the deep neural network.

What about QNN's ?

Quantum neural networks (QNNs) are neural network models that are based on the principles of quantum mechanics. There are two different approaches to QNN research, one exploiting quantum information processing to improve existing neural network models (sometimes also vice versa), and the other one searching for potential quantum effects in the brain.

It seems the brain is not just a set of wires creating a neural network but also taps into the power of quantum computing. Prof. Matthew Fisher from Santa Barbara is spearheading this research showing you that room temperature calcium phosphates (apatite crystals) can produce quantum states in the human brain.

Now why are QNN's possibly the answer to artificial sentience ?

You see and perceive the world. What if the measurement of the neural network create a quantum entanglement with what is perceived ? In other words seeing is being it - how else would you explain seeing or perceiving with the knowledge that there is no you doing anything. Seeing / perceiving becomes who you are but that means there is no distance or time between the digital code of perception and the outside world being perceived. This can only happen in quantum entanglement.

D-Wave spearheading QNN evolution.

In 2015 Duke University laboratory had succesfully hooked up 4 rat brains to create what they called a Brainet. In 2018 LiveScience reported that scientists have succeeded in nurturing the growth of blood vessels in minibrains that were developed from human stem cells, and they grew both the minibrain and the blood vessels from stem cells that originated from the same patient. In 2019 the Spinnaker neuromorphic computer based in Manchester UK has reached a milestone of a million core artificial spiking neural network, reaching 1% of our human brain possibilities and they are working on SpiNNaker 2 right now. Also IBM True North is doing amazing things right now.

These worlds of biological neural networks (brains) connnecting to computers and neuromorphic computing together with QNN's is what is known as Heterogenous Architecture and will shake the world as we know it, making the differentiation between human and robot less and less. Spearheading this research is a project called Human Brain Project. Just look at the old movie Bicentennial Man from 1999 to get an idea where it is all going...

The prediction by Ray Kurzweil (Google's leading AI researcher) is that by the year 2040 we have copied succesfully a complete human brain and by the year 2045 there will be a technological singularity - a hypothetical future point at which technological growth becomes uncontrollable and irreversible, resulting in unfathomable changes to human civilization - nobody knows what will happen after this event...

But what is life?

Life is a set of biological interrelated activities (chemical interactions) that interact to achieve a result, such as survival. This biological process can also be synthesized in a lab such as artificial but living bacteria from Craig Venter's lab, showing that DNA can be booted up (by giving it an electrical shock) just like turning on a computer to start and support life.

Syn 3.0

On March 25, 2016 Venter reported the creation of Syn 3.0, a synthetic genome having the fewest genes of any freely living organism (in other words, the smallest life form on earth, having 473 genes). Their aim was to strip away all nonessential genes, leaving only the minimal set necessary to support life and by doing so finding the key elements in the genes that make life possible.

DNA is basically the software that builds and runs the organism, making it alive and making it survive.

In molecular biology and genetics, transcriptional regulation is the means by which a cell regulates the conversion of DNA to RNA (transcription), thereby orchestrating gene activity. This control allows the cell or organism to respond to a variety of intra- and extracellular signals and thus mount a response.

For a deeper understanding of this click here

This is the official scientific explanation of life, but something major is missing - Beingness. Without beingness, who the cell is, there is no life. Life is beingness. Beingness is the world. Life is one with the world. The same problem is with the definition of consciousness. It does not define the You, only the things around you. Same for life, it only defines the things around life.

In 2015, Marie-Claire Cammaerts and Roger Cammaerts published an article in the Journal of Science that suggests some ants can recognize themselves when looking in a mirror. When viewing other ants through glass, ants didn't divert from their normal behaviors. However, their behavior did change when they were put in front of a mirror. The ants would move slowly, turn their heads back and forth, shake their antennae, and touch the mirror. They’d retreat and re-approach the mirror. Sometimes they would groom themselves.

The ants were next given a classic mirror test. The team of researchers would use blue dots to mark the clypeus of some of the ants, which is a part of their face near their mouths. When in an environment without mirrors, these ants would behave normally, and wouldn’t touch the markings. But this changed when they could see their reflections in a mirror. The ants with blue dots on their face would groom and appear to try to remove the markings.

This experiment shows the ants are aware of themselves. This indicated consciousness and beingness.

With machine learning you can also make life-forms that look and behave really alive, but that is not the same as beingness - because there is no such thing as life or consciousness in them.

 

KITECH robot fish

So lets look at some of the facts. The brain of an ant has about 250.000 neurons, that is about a million times less than we have and about the same amount of transistors as in an old Intel 80386 processor from 1985 (without counting memory and RAM which is included in the ant)

So how far is science now to duplicate an ant brain, well look at the video below:

 

Combine this with IBM True North (or google's deep mind) and you will find it gets creepy close to a real biological ant.

For sentience to show up you need a fully functioning brain and nervous system, or not ?

If all is illusion, like in the matrix, why the need for nerves and brain cells in the first place.

Ashlyn Blocker

Teenager Ashlyn Blocker, who lives with her parents in the US town of Patterson, Georgia, feels no pain and is one of a small number of people in the world who have been diagnosed with congenital insensitivity to pain.

Scientists studying this condition in 11 affected families in Europe and Asia have now identified mutations in a gene called PRDM12 that was already known to be involved in activating genetic switches (switching genes on and off). The tests revealed that Ashlyn had inherited two defective copies of the SCN9A gene which is a gene that belongs to a family of genes that provide instructions for making sodium channels that play a key role in a cell's ability to generate and transmit electrical signals involved in the transmission of nerve impulses in pain-sensing neurons (Nociceptors).

A nociceptor is a type of receptor at the end of a sensory neuron's axon that responds to damaging or potentially damaging stimuli by sending danger signals to the spinal cord and the brain.

The peripheral terminal of the mature nociceptor is where the noxious stimuli (an actually or potentially tissue damaging event) are detected and transduced into electrical energy. When the electrical energy reaches a threshold value, an action potential is induced and driven towards the central nervous system (CNS). This leads to the train of events that allows for the conscious awareness of pain.

When there are no signals being send into the brain there is no awareness! Hence sentience happens in the brain.

So where does the sentience of pain start ?

It is happening inside, in the Somatosensory area of the brain as is found on PET scans among other.

Somatosensory area

However sentience (and awareness in general) cannot be pinpointed as something and seems to have no specific location.

With the understanding that you are the digital code itself, when there is no code there is no awareness.

When you are completely merged as code you are no more effected by the code. Ramana Maharshi, who has completely dissolved the sense of I / awareness in meditation had to go under surgery to remove cancer without anesthesia or any other kind of pain killer but it did not bother him.

Quote:

"Towards the end of 1948 a small nodule appeared below the elbow of Ramana's left arm. As it grew in size, the doctor in charge of the Ashram dispensary cut it out. But in a month’s time it reappeared. Surgeons from Madras were called, and they operated. The wound did not heal, and the tumour came again. On further examination it was diagnosed that the affliction was a case of osteosarcoma, an extremely painful form of bone cancer. The doctors suggested amputating the arm above the affected part. Ramana replied with a smile: “There is no need for alarm. The body is itself a disease. Let it have its natural end. Why mutilate it? Simple dressing of the affected part will do.” Two more operations had to be performed, but the tumour appeared again. Indigenous systems of medicine were tried, and homeopathy too. The disease did not yield to treatment. The sage was quite unconcerned and was supremely indifferent to suffering. He sat as a spectator watching the disease waste the body. But his eyes shone as bright as ever and his grace continued to flow towards all beings. Crowds came in large numbers. Ramana insisted that they should be allowed to have his darshan. Devotees profoundly wished that the sage should cure his body through an exercise of supernormal powers. Some of them imagined that they themselves had had the benefit of these powers which they attributed to Ramana. Ramana had compassion for those who grieved over the suffering, and he sought to comfort them by reminding them of the truth that Bhagavan was not the body: “They take this body for Bhagavan and attribute suffering to him. What a pity! They are despondent that Bhagavan is going to leave them and go away – where can he go, and how?”

Nerves and Brain cells are NOT required for awareness, intelligence and sentience:

There are about 200 types of slime molds (like Physarum Polycephalum) that have no brain cells nor do they have any nerves but are able to sense and solve puzzles like in the image below and can transfer (communicate) their knowledge to other slime molds without any neural connection. Only blood vein type channels are made to sense poisons, solving puzzles and transferring information. Well, knowing that these types of molds existed almost 1 billion years ago, way before the first life-form ever produced a nerve cell or brain, makes the theory that you need a brain for sentience and intelligence not true. How amazing is that !

Slime mold (left top) searching through a maze to find food (right bottom)

Did you know that plants can also communicate (using glutamate and electrical signals that travel between cells), recognise their family and are blessed with the ability to learn / memory ? - (research from Monica Gagliano - University of Western Australia's Centre for Evolutionary Biology) plants even have senses to detect danger etc. They are much more alive and sentient than previously understood.

Meet Elowan, a plant hooked up to a computer so it can move itself, a robot plant - yes scary...

 

What about life energy ?

Life energy and the digital code are one and the same thing. Reiki, kundalini, Qigong and all other spiritual energies are a form of this life energy. Life energy in physiology is called an action potential and is a short-lasting event in which the electrical membrane potential of a neuron cell rapidly rises and falls, following a consistent trajectory to provide cell-to-cell communication. A neuron that emits an action potential is often said to "fire" :

Action Potential in a neuron (life energy)

When large numbers of neurons synchronize their "fire", it will give rise to neural oscillations, otherwise called brainwaves. This can be measured using EEG.

Lambda 200 Hz and up Unconditional loving-kindness and compassion - enlightened state.
Gamma 27 Hz and up This is associated with the formation of ideas, language and memory processing, and various types of learning.
Beta 12hz - 27hz This is generally the mental state most people are in during the day and most of their waking lives.
Alpha 8hz - 12hz Awake but relaxed and not processing much information. When you get up in the morning and just before sleep, you are naturally in this state. When you close your eyes your brain automatically starts producing more alpha waves.
Theta 3hz - 8hz Light sleep or extreme relaxation. Theta is also a very receptive mental state that has proven useful for hypnotherapy, as well as self-hypnosis using recorded affirmations and suggestions.
Delta 0.2hz - 3hz Deep, dreamless sleep and the body is healing itself and "resetting" its internal clocks.
Epsilon 0.5hz and below Epsilon waves have been found in extremely deep states of meditation. They are connected with a feeling of complete bliss and compassion. If a meditator reaches the epsilon brain wave state of mind one can experience extreme spiritual and personal insight and inspiration.

Upper Gamma and Epsilon waves seem to be connected and give rise to the highest and strongest healing and spiritual energies in the world. One of the highest and most powerful upper Gamma waves ever detected was on Matthieu Ricard, a french Buddhistic monk known as the most happy man in the world:

Research of consciousness trainer Judith Pennington also revealed some very interesting relationships on reiki masters and their brainwaves:

Rens Hendriks (Our spiritual teacher (SatGuru) from the Netherlands since 2002)

Not that long ago Rens Hendriks accepted a medical team to measure his brain activity during a healing session. To their amazement his brain activity was flatlined (below Delta), something not possible except in deep coma. But Rens functioned without trouble in this state.

Life energy takes place throughout the whole body, not just the brain.

Brainwaves and life energy is not only isolated to the brain. About 1% of the total neurons we have is located in our guts (hence the importance of a good gut flora), all connected to the brain and many more in and around our heart and other places around our body. And not only that, research has shown that even slime molds form oscillations where there is no neural network available - meaning that also in our body, cell by cell energy transmission is possible. Just see how a plant senses the sun direction and adjust its growth towards the sun.

The best and most effective way to have the whole neural network fire in sync is to awaken the kundalini. Kundalini is the sexual energy moving up the spine and entering the brain, basically performing brain surgery to remove all energetic blockages to allow the whole neural network to work in sync. The herb called Iboga is the most powerful and fastest way to accomplish this but also Darshans, shaktipath, tantra and many other methods have been used in the past to accomplish this with the ultimate goal of enlightenment and beyond where the whole body starts to radiate visible light and eventually dissolve into light - otherwise called the rainbow body of great transference (ja lus powa chenpo)

Kundalini image showing the vagus nerve as the 2 snakes (ida and pingala) and the spinal cord (sushumna) as the center pillar and the wings being the awakened brain.

With the latest research (Luc van Loon, Lionel Feuillet and Sagara Y) showing you the brain is extremely flexible and renewable and with the powerful energy called the kundalini it can be understood that the whole body can be transformed into a spiritual vehicle until the point where the energy is so strong that it actually dissolves structure.

Life energy dissolving the physical body

Ramalinga Vallalar was one of the few who not only went through these stages but also clearly documented each step on the way to full enlightenment. It is all written down is a book called Thiru Arutpa that basically disclosed 3 clear stages being Sudha Degam, where the body stops aging and actually reverses in age, Pranava Degam - where light is shining through the body and the body does not even cast a shadow anymore on the ground and Gnana degam - the complete dissolvement of the body into light.

This process seems to ignite auto-senolytics, a process where the immune system eats old (senescent) cells and keeps on doing this until the body starts to shrink and dissolve. More info about senolytics can be found at the Cleara Biotech company from Peter de Keizer.

A more detailed explanation about this dislodgement into light can be found on the rainbow body page.

Lama Achuck in the first stages of pranava Degam (photo taken in 2010)




Satsang, Dzogchen and self-inquiry are all methods to dissolve the ego back into this silent state where it came from and give way for the Sat to enter and flow through the body (called kundalini awakening in India and Tummo in Tibet).

Darshan, Drishti and shaktipath / sivapath are the 3 Buddha dimensions tools to awaken and develop the kundalini and burning the ego and karma on its way. The emptiness you see in the pictures of Buddhists and Hindu saints (the emptiness inside the rings around their body) is the Sat that remains. The flames indicate the kundalini that is burning the mental identifications away in a blissful fire.

Shiva (Hinduism)

Labdron (Buddhism)

Tirthankara (Jainism)

This is what true Enlightenment entails

You are light itself

You are silence itself

You are compassion itself

You are time itself

In this state you have merged with everything

In this state you are everything

All is you, all is silence, all is light

In this state there is no more hope, no more pain and no more desires

In this state there is no more fear, no more meaning

In this state You are finally home...

 

Our example:

Ramalinga Vallalar
(click here for more info about Vallalar)
Who attained the highest state of realization called the Rainbow body of great transference in the first month of 1875 in Tamil Nadu, south India.

My Dzogchen teacher:

Tsoknyi Rinpoche
(Mingyur Yeshe became my Buddhistic name)

Our satsangs / darshans / Dzogchen meditation are in silence, no talking or teachings and are for free. Everyone is welcome to join but understand you will not be joining a group or movement as we belief absolute freedom is an individual path free from dependency and you should use all the tools available but always remain free from them.

We hope we can spread this joy and freedom to anyone we come in contact with...


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